Songs that remind me of Allison

I was up playing with Allison in her room and was trying to find some songs on my iPod to play in the background.  I wound up finding the following songs that made me think of her and of course get teary-eyed!  :-)

"You and Me" by The Cranberries
I'm not going out tonight 'cos I don't want to go
I am staying at home tonight 'cos I don't want to know
You revealed a world to me and I would never be
Dwelling in such happiness, your gift of purity

Aahh, you and me it will always be
You and me forever be,
Eternally it will always be you and me

I don't pay attention to the ones who never cared
Find your own direction 'cos there's sweetness in the air
You will be the world to me and I will always be
Dwelling in this happiness, your gift of purity

Aahh, you and me will always be
You and me forever be,
Eternally will always be
You and me

"Can't Take My Eyes Off You" by Frankie Valli
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you
You'd be like heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you

Pardon the way that I stare
There's nothing else to compare
The sight of you leaves me weak
There are no words left to speak
But if you feel like I feel
Please let me know that it's real
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you


I love you Allison!

Love,
Mommy

Happy 2 months!

Happy 2 months old to my sweet little baby!  Allison got to celebrate by going to the doctor to get a new cast....she wiggled out of her last one over the weekend and was very proud of herself!  :-)  It may have been a blessing, since we got squeezed in with a different doctor who actually would be doing her surgery, and we had a very positive visit.

Allison wrapped up her first 2 months by learning to "talk" and now regularly entertains us with her agoo's and hoohoohoo's.  :-)  Of course when I try to catch it on video, she stops and stares at the camera!  She also has learned to pinch me, haha.

Allison is often all smiles, especially when Than makes silly noises.  She can hold her head up when I'm holding her and got through her last bath without any tears.  She is such a blessing and my daily joy.  I love her so much!

Here are some photos that we posted:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/29687485@N03/sets/72157637776979283/

I'm pregnant!

Yay, I'm pregnant!  I'm a little more tentative this time around after our miscarriage last August.  I wanted to get started on this, though, for the same reason I started one with my last pregnancy.  I would like to create a photo book from the blog to have as a keepsake after the baby is born.  Here's hoping and praying that this time around the baby is healthy and things keep progressing until a wonderful, healthy baby is born!

From what the Internet says (haha), my due date will be September 13, 2013.  I have not made a doctor's appointment yet.  I am going to wait a week and take another pregnancy test, and then make the appointment.

Needless to say I am very scared for another miscarriage.  I just can't help it.  There is no way of knowing what is going on until that first doctor's appointment.  With my last pregnancy, that's when everything came tumbling down, and 2 weeks later, I miscarried.  And then went to the ER.  And had a break-down.  ETC.  I am just trying to stay as stress-free as possible and do everything that I can possibly do.  However, I know that I can't control everything, and I need to let go of the worry that I cannot control.

Anyways, enough of that.

I am excited, and so is Than.  :-)  I haven't told anyone else yet.  I took the test on January 2nd, and had to wait the whole day until Than came home to tell him.  Needless to say, I didn't get much work done that day.  I was back on BabyCenter!  haha

Week 8

Finally....it's week 8!  The week of the doctor's appointment!  My appointment is Thursday at 8am, so I am very excited.  I will report back with the estimated due date (the Internet says March 4) and if I come back with any ultrasound photos.

The past week has been okay, but I have been feeling very tired and have had several panic attacks in the middle of the night or after waking from a nap.  This has happened to me before in the past several years, and each time I Google looking for answers.  Apparently, this happens to many people, but nobody has any answers on why or how to prevent it.  It is scary to wake up and feel so disoriented and detached from reality, panicking that something is seriously warong.  Yesterday the feeling didn't fully go away for more than an hour.  I think maybe I need to do more to alleviate stress.  Since I have been so tired, it has been difficult to even think of exercising in any way, and it is way too hot out to go for a walk.  I bought a prenatal exercise DVD that came in the mail yesterday, so I can try that out.  I would also like to get back in the pool, since I think swimming some laps would really help.

This week is the week of the raspberry, which is pretty cool.  It is strange to try to imagine that inside me somewhere there is a little raspberry-sized baby wiggling around.  :-)

Week 7

Yay, it's the week of the blueberry!

I gotta tell you, I am soooooooooo tired all the time and hungry every 2 hours (like ravenously, stomach-achingly hungry).  I was in a virtual coma on the couch yesterday and did absolutely nothing all day.  I also cried about 20 times this weekend, including at The Olive Garden!  That was fun.  (NOT!)  I also will need to buy some new pants soon.  I can fit into them, but they are quite uncomfortable after sitting at work for hours on end.  We can wear jeans to work now....how about including yoga pants?  :-)

My doctor's appointment is next week, so at least I will finally find out something.  That is still the hardest part right now.

Today for lunch I decided I was going to eat one of my twice-weekly servings of fish in the form of a tuna sandwich.  I was so psyched up for that tuna sandwich on whole wheat with lettuce, tomato, and onion.  I waited in line for 15 minutes, my stomach growling the entire time, just to find out that they had no tuna today!!!!!!  Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.  And of course I'm not allowed to each lunch meat, so I just walked away dejectedly.  I wound up getting a "10 spice chicken" with summer vegetables and orzo.  Well, the chicken was hard as shoe leather, and the summer vegetables were really spicy, so all I could eat was the orzo.  What a waste of money!  Similar to my lunch on Friday that I had to throw out because it had a spider in it!  I may have to give up on the work cafeteria.

Week 6

Week 6 starts today!  And as if right on cue, the waves of nausea started!  There's nothing like being on a teleconference and wanting to hang up and run to the bathroom.  LOL

Time is going by soooooooo slowly leading up to my first doctor's appointment.  I hope that I am doing everything I can so far for a healthy baby!  Than is helping out by making me fruit smoothies almost every night.  Delicious!

This week, the baby is the size of a sweet pea.

Week 5

Days are going by so slowly leading up to the 8 week doctor's appointment!  All I want to do is go shopping for baby things, but I don't want to get overly excited and then find out something is wrong.  :-(  It is still strange being pregnant but not knowing what is going on or feeling any strong symptoms.  I feel some cramping once in a while, but that's it (I guess I should be happy!).  I have been drinking a lot of water and fruit smoothies (thanks Than!).  I need to get some exercise regimen started up.  Than and I went for a walk yesterday, which was nice.  It is just so darn hot out!

This week, the baby is the size of an apple seed.  Still soooo tiny!